|The Mystery within...|
I learned many different things about life, and myself, as I struggled to care for my aging parents who suffered from alcoholism and Alzheimer's disease. Perhaps the most important was to trust God as I was running out of solutions and hope to solve big problems. From God Never Hurries: “What a plan God had to test my trust—to go to the root of my perpetual responsibility condition—to let go of any savior image of myself, to let pain be pain and mystery be mystery.” I found real courage during that time of significant difficulty. I did my inner work through daily written reflection and came to own my complicity in my troubles.
Lately, life is again stressful for me on multiple fronts. I’ve been working hard to find solutions--maybe too hard. Is daily written reflection currently a part of my life? No. I know it would help. Are there things I should be grateful for? Yes. I own a home and have homeowner’s insurance that will cover much of the needed repairs even though they have been dragging out all summer and are still not done. I have health insurance to cover the medical tests I am currently undergoing. And I have a pension that pays the bills. I know there are deeper hidden gifts in my current troubles. Daily written reflecting could unwrap them for me. For now, I printed out Teilhard de Chardin’s “Above All Trust in the Slow Work of God” from my Comfort Messages titled Learning Trust.
What if it was easy to find the gifts in our troubles? Would we still learn as much?