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Found, yes, but not completely. Living the mystery is now more comforting to me than any
certainty of where I am at. I
prefer it that way for it leaves me more open to new learning. But seriously lost? Not anymore. Not after I claimed my self-worth and am gradually growing
in true appreciation of the unconditional worth of others. Writing God Never Hurries was an important piece of finding my way. It gave my life context and put
perspective on my troubles.
In my memoir I tell of listening to my father’s litany of
derision one morning and I wrote: But I felt like a duck. His words seemed to hit my back and
roll to the floor as I stood there flipping pancakes. They did not penetrate me and I felt some hate drain with
the understanding that he is not going to change. That brought a strange kind of relief. I remembered the words there is a
reason and season for everything—joy/sorrow; bravery/fear; love/hate;
peace/war. I remembered too, other
words that woke me once before, “Be careful. He’s dangerous.”
I wasn’t sure those words were real until then.
Deep appreciation for all my learning thus far came to me in
the mail recently on a CD sent to me by one of my Wisdom Seeker friends. There was no artist named on it and a
magic marker had identified the title as “How Could Anyone.” It is sung by the voice of an angel
accompanied by a soulful melody to these words:
“How could anyone
ever tell you
You were anything
less than beautiful?
How could anyone ever
tell you
You were less than
whole?
How could anyone fail
to notice that
Your loving is a
miracle?
How deeply you’re
connected to my soul.”
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